So it has been aaaaages since I posted here.
The whole interface has changed.
I just haven't had much I've wanted to say, unemployment is depressing.
I currently have a very part-time, yet time consuming, gig as an adjunct faculty member at the local college.
It is making me want to apologize to all of my old professors, profusely. These papers... my brain it hurts, my eyes they bleed, just ow.
Hi, LJ world.
I need to start writing long journal entries again.
School is seriously eating my life right now.
With that in mind, back to reading Billy Budd.
Been a while...
Writing a paper, as usual.
Have been writing this paper outside of the house b/c my mother is driving me bonkers with the "how's your paper coming." I don't know how much more I can point out I got thru all the rest of my classes just fine without her nagging. (minus the hellish first few semesters at SMCM). But, one must keep in mind this is the woman who regularly did all of my school projects in elementary school. Not because I couldn't or wasn't doing them but because what I was doing wasn't good enough. I love my mother, but I can see exactly why I am so behind in certain areas of my life. She means well, but she has a tendency to go far, far overboard.
Need to get cash so I can buy my daily drink to pay for my seat at the local bread store to work on this paper. Might actually buy some food there today too... though I'm seriously getting strapped for cash, even the drinks are more than I'd like to spend, but since I am spending hours there, I really need to.
Once this paper is done I can focus on a few other things for the rest of the summer.
I am so not focused.
I want these papers done.
But I all "la la la la"
Hopefully everyone is off to work tomorrow, I can maybe focus then... eeeeergh. At least I have edited what I wrote yesterday. I'm just not interested in what I am writing.
I might have to pull the paper up on one of my less internet friendly computers and see if I can stop my ADD that way. (I don't have ADD on a normal day, this is totaly 30 page paper induced)
Am so busy.
How did I get this busy and still not have a job? Gargh.
I love my friends.
I love the people who have stuck by me thru the proverbial thick and thin. The people who put up with my zany quirks and even celebrate them. Its great to know I have such awesome people at my side.
Between staying up crazy late for the midnight release of Hunger Games (so worth it), the reaction to some awful something to dinner last night and allergies I am feeling so not 100%.
Probably going to hit the hay early so I can get up and not hate life when I have to go into DC tomorrow. More training. :)
I did play with photoshop for the first time in a long time today. Dragged outmy iBook. Poor baby, it won't even sleep when it is unplugged now, just totally shuts down. I'm pretty happy with how it turned out considering what a rush I was in making it. Parts of it could clearly be improved, but overall, looking good.
I really need to catch up on my reading for my school work so I can start writing my epic long papers.
How is it the weekend again??
All of my trekking around D.C. is finally paying off and there is a downward trend in the weight. Yaaaay! I also have uncovered my Wii Balance board (now that my Wii has remembered how to work.) and have been using Wii Fit once again. Man can I feel it now. Before when I did, you know when I was pretty active at the store, I could feel the exertion but not so much the strain. I did some yoga and some cadio and muscles are def feeling stretched.
Finally finished 'Scorpio Races' by m_stiefvater. Was amazing. I'm very picky about my books that are written in first person, that seems to be her preferred method though and I'm fine with that. She's a good writer, and develops her characters really well. It seems to be that first person is an easy crutch for a weaker writer to try and prop their narrative up with, which is why I usually don't like it (though P.G. Wodehouse who is one of my favorite writers ever almost always writes in first person). It is a narrative perspective that only better writers should employ but that so often bad writers use, it is a bit of a litmus test for me. She totally passed with flying colors.
Its a very light fantasy book, mostly it is about standing on one's own two feet. Anyone looking for a good book that involves really neat horses, well here it is.
Looking at what jobs are available just depresses me. I don't want to do them, they don't excite me they don't even interest me in the slightest. The thing after looking thru the first 11 pages of Baltimore Sun ads that most caught my eye was being an Avon Rep. Haha. I haven't heard back from the job I applied to last week that I was so excited about, so I think that is not going to happen, sadly.
I'm really liking my internship, it is nice being around people again and in a work environment, even if it is only like four of them. Luckily they are a really fun crew smart and sassy, exactly how I like my people.
I did spend some really nice time outside today. I was killing time before hopping on the metro (thought i was going to miss peak hours, that plan failed, ehh). I sat on a bench on the Mall and worked on a drawing I am doing for my dad (he needs a few illustrations for his newest book). Was nice to just be there. Had some nice joggers smiling as they zipped passed (past? I can't ever figure it out).
Was annoyed because I lost my metro card somewhere today, luckily it only had 2 bucks on it so it wasn't too big of a deal that I had to buy a new one, but still. Grrr.
Tried a wrap from Pret a Mange actually a wrap I would get again (I sort of don't like floppy tortiallas).
I went to charge up my Argus Bean camera the other day (it is really small and clips onto belt loops, I love it but it is only good for snapshot photos, so I haven't been using it since I got my fancy Nikon)... and it is broken! Somehow the months of sitting in a drawer broke the USB port. Boooooo!
I just looked up online to see if I could replace it. I bought it at the time b/c it was super cheap and pretty durable (we know I am rough on electronics). Now I'd have to pay triple what I originally paid for it. What? Grrrr.
I'm just going to have to keep my eye out for a cheap replacement. With all my traveling around DC and other places lately I've really been wanting a camera with me and unless I am going specifically somewhere as a tourist I don't want to drag my nice camera with me, I have other stuff I'm lugging around with me. Its that or drag around a bigger bag. Argh
RIP Argus Bean :(
What is your problem body?
I fed you a nice bowl of cereal and maybe an hour later you were hungry.
I fed you a really tasty and HUGE salad and now, an hour later you are hungry.
I'm gonna cave and eat something, but this needs to slow now body, there isn't enough food in this house to eat twelve meals a day. We are not hobbits.
My sisters are playing old family tapes for one of their boyfriends. This is from 2000, so my first or second year of college. Before I made my mom let me get my eyebrows done. Dear lord. No wonder I shaved part of one off when I was in middle school. Soooo ugly.
Now I'm fairly happy with how they look, when I take the time to actually shape them and what not. I look like a grumpy pasty thing with the old ones.
I really, really, REALLY hope I hear positive things back from the job I applied to.
I got an email saying all applicants needed to make sure they turned in all parts of the application. To which I responded, in paranoia, lol. But I got a response back saying they had all my material *whew*.
Now, just hire me. Or at the very least, interview me, pwease?
Think my stomach is finally done hating what I fed it for dinner last night. Apparently I didn't chew my spinach salad well enough. Adding that to the list of foods my body doesn't like to digest--though it has nothing on the raw onions. Some people have a harder time digesting celluose--according to the interwebs.
This means I need to get dressed and go on my 'assignment' going to another part of the state I've never heard of, lol.
Read some Emerson for class last night, enjoyed it, have more to read. Also, Utopia is so not the book I expected for some reason. It really strikes me as a sci-fi novel and it actually seems pretty dystopian to me. I think I am going to have fun writing that paper (you know all thirty pages of it, oof)
Totally woke up quoting the Raven in my head though. Workers are replacing our siding. It is a loud process.
'who's that pounding on my chamber door?'
And then my mom came in and told me there was a bird in the house.
'quoth the RAVEN, 'nevermore,'
Wasn't a raven though, madre prolly would have been screaming. Was a little wren, apparently. It flew out before I saw it.
'quote the WREN,'nevermore?' Hm...maybe not.
too tired to get up and wash my face.
Z came over for the better part of the day today. Was nice to have her around for a bit. I spent most of my day working on an application. I seriously I hope I get at least an interview for this job. I really need something. At first I was too brain damaged from the store and the liquidation to actually have any issues with being unemployed but now it it is starting to get to me. It really wears thin on the psyche. Six months, I know that is a cake walk of unemployment compared to what other people I know have had to deal with.
I actually updated my resume for this job, that is how much I'd actually like to get somewhere with it.
Part of it I know is me being a little picky in terms of what I am applying to. I know I could easily get a job in a few places, like retail again. And it isn't because I hate retail, there is a lot to be gained from spending time doing retail. Money however, isn't one of them, heh. I know I am a strong worker because of my time in retail. I have had some really excellent on the floor training in terms of dealing with crazy people and crazy situations (yeah...shooting anyone?). However, I've been there, done that and there are things that aren't going to change about the retail world that I'd rather not have to deal with. I'd like to not have to fight for holidays off, primarily. It is an awful thing when you are made to feel guilty for not working on say Easter.
I got an email from the hermit today. Out of the blue, saying how he misses chatting with me. It was nice to hear from him. I've learned alot about people, and myself, because of my friendship with him. I've learned how to let them go. Which is something that wasn't easy for me to learn at all. I guess my reward for accepting that with him is I get occasional little messages from him. It is funny how many times I have had to use that lesson in my life. It does make me appreciate my real friends that much more though. I really have some wonderful people in my life that I wouldn't trade for anyone.
I have to take Belle to the vet again tomorrow for some Xrays. To determine if she has cancer or not. *sigh* Poor thing, third time to the vet this month, this will not make for a happy beagle.
Need to get back in the habit of updating, as it keeps me writing.
So far this semester is off to a much better start than last semester. My head is in a better place, even if I am unemployed instead of on the verge of being unemployed. Also, don' thave stupid class on experimental European lit. Bleeeaaarrgh. I hated that class so much. I'm keeping busy with a few things. I have my internship, which is nice. I'm not doing anything spectacular, but it is really nice to be around people in a work environment again. I'm already feeling pretty comfortable there and I like the people I work with (all four of them, lol). Plus I get to learn about Azerbaijan. I hate my super part time job, can't wait for it to end, but I will suck it up for two months (everyone just will get to hear me complain about it.) And it ends just after my jury duty stint begins. Argh.
Still can't believe I got picked for that again. THREE times in one year, seriously.
My mom figured it out last night though. She's never been on a jury, got called once, when she was pregnant with me--which allowed her to be exempt. So me being her exemption clearly has marred my jury duty karma.
I'm still pretty hard core addicted to Korean tv shows. I've cut back quite a bit though, not finishing off a show in three days, lol. I'm actually watching one as it airs (though not live as I have to wait for it to be subtitled). Its fun to be part of a netizen community again though. I haven't really had that since Buffy stopped airing.
Its also pretty fun to get to go into DC every week (though expensive). I try and make the most of it when I can and walk around a few blocks wherever I happen to be, if there is a museum I pop into it. Yesterday I went to the zoo for a little while. Saw one zebra trying to get busy with another (fail). Me and the cheetahs were being pretty amused. All three cheetahs were watching like it was somesort of African Tundra soap opera, laying around, tail swishing occasionally. I was entertained.
Have to get my room clean by tomorrow morning b/c workers are coming to replace the upstairs windows. I've gotten it to the point, where if I have to I can toss everything on my bed tomorrow morning, but I'm trying to get a little further than that.
Everytime I do these late night cleans--which is when I tend to clean, or when no one is around, I am reminded of Girl Scouts. Part of the bridging ceremony from Daisy to Brownie is re-enacting a story about brownies who clean late at night... Something about the girl looking in a mirror and seeing that she is the brownie who can do the same good deeds. I'm surprised I remember it so well considering I was a brownie uhm 25 years ago? Ouch. and my youngest sisters would have been twenty years ago.
I'm going into D.C. again tomorrow. Will be the third time this week, but will be to meet up with Mary. Crazy woman wants to walk TEN MILES (she compromised and said six) but still. Its gonna hurt, because D.C. is all sneaky hills. And I have to go in again on Saturday for my "Top Secret" job. Yup. And I wanted to go in on Sunday because the Native American Museum is having a chocolate festival...
Good news is tho the other two days I was in DC this week I was doing an internship at the Karabakh Foundation--I'm learning all about Azerbaijan. Can't say it is a country I knew much about before, but it is helping filling my post-world-war-2 knowledge which is super flimsy. I also interviewed to be a volunteer at the Natural History Museum. Woo! That will probably happen. Being a Smithsonian Volunteer comes with some sweet perks. I was excited just to be spending time in one of my favorite museums. But I also get: musuem store and cafe discounts (helllooooo Native American food), free IMAX tickets, FREE parking and behind the scenes info and the pipeline on jobs, wooo! hooo!
And I got freaking picked for Jury Duty again. WTF.
I can't remember when it was....about this time last year I got picked for county duty. I went in for a day and then had to call in for a week. Then a few months ago I had to fill out paper work for State jury duty. Never heard back after that. Now I have been selected for a Federal Grand Jury. WTF WTF??? I actually sat and read the paperwork tonight (I've been glaring at it for a few days). I potetially have to report to the court once a week for a WHOLE YEAR. aaaaack!
Who else gets picked for Jurty Duty three times in less than a year?? I do get paid if I do it though, and being all jobless (Top Secret Job so doesn't count, trust me) I'm not really adverse to getting picked, though driving to Baltimore once a week might make my head explode.
Need to go buy more hangers, the good kinda and not the kind from the dry cleaners...
Also, seem to have misplaced my Edgar Allen Poe book. I need it for this semester, again. Prof seems to have a real proclivity for the dude. Not really looking forward to re-reading "Arthur Gordon Pymn." It is weird and makes me think of a failed Edgar Rice Burroughs book. Also, it oddly reminds me of a George Sand book about a world inside of geodes and crystals... (one of her weirder books too).
I need to get rid of some shoes, I think. I have a pair of sneakers and obviously the boots that killed my foot for a month are going. Debating getting rid of another pair of boots. I paid FIVE DOLLARS for them, which is why I don't want to get rid of them...probably a stupid reason, I'd wear them more, but they also aren't comfortable. Other than that, they are great. :/ I also have a metric ton of prom-type-shoes.
I'm also missing some shoes that I would wear...no doubt they've been eaten by my sisters' closet. I tried to go looking for them once, barely got out of there alive. I'm betting they have the singing trash heap from Fraggle Rock in their room somewhere.
Hair is super staticy right now b/c I was trying on all of my shirts and sweaters to see what I wanted to keep.
Yup. Pack-rat me is trying to weed thru things.
Sadly I just shrank my color palette considerably. I mostly have black shirts left and got rid of most of my red and pink shirts. :/ I'm not trying to be one of those people who only wears black. I actually really like wearing color. But, I was trying to be objective and keep the clothes I wore and that looked best on me, even keeping in mind that I am planning on losing some weight. (I'm probably a little less right now since I haven't eaten too much the last few days thanks to being sick.)
I already have a good half dozen bags in my car from a previous effort of months ago. Today I filled up two bags. One of sweaters and one of other shirts. Some of them are tops I have never or barely ever worn. Some of them are tops I've held onto because they were my absolute favorites for a long time. Even though I haven't worn them in years the fondness for them lingers.
So wait... I thought vertical stripes were supposed to make you look thinner.
I'm trying on some of my older sweaters to see if I want to keep them or not, one has vertical ribbing on it, nice dark purple (Well faded dark purple).
So why do my boobs look HUGE in it?
I feel like 7 of 9, no kidding. Eesh.
And its a loose fitting sweater.
For anyone who's wondering it is in the giveaway pile.
When asked for her opinion my mom said "if you wear it keep it, you can use it to do lawn work in." Ouch.